Where Fear and Faith Collide

Well all of my options have run dry, oh well. I've decided I need to focus on my relationship with god. He's been trying to teach me so much recently, I love it. I think it's mostly about me trying to let go of the control I have over my life. I don't know where I'm going next but that's the exciting part. I have no clue where I'll end up. I really want to pursue teaching overseas. It's always been something I want to do, but I've always been too scared or found some excusse to not do it. I kinda feel like God is calling me to do this. It would make sense. I mean, I've always felt pulled towards international missions. Who knows, maybe I meet my husband overseas. Erin Kohl did that, and I"m basically living her life a few years behind her anyways, hah. I'm really trying to live by faith and not by my own sight. I'm trying to fix my gaze on God. I'm in the word regularly and praying often. I'm having a ton of deep conversations with people, which led to really great insights. I had no idea how deep some of my friends are. This whole experience shook me alot and caused me to really ask some hard questions and delve into deep topics. I'm feeling very loved and inspired. I feel like something big is about to happen in my life, like I'm on the brink of something amazing. This could be great!